Cant wait for you to be back, J. ♥

Miss you so much!!!

Now every February, you'll be my Valentine.

I cant promise you the future, but now, I promise you I'll love you wholeheartedly.

xoxo, iloveyou J. :)

Lovey Dovey.

Last night was by far the best night of my life.

Was @ Rebel with shae, a truly ladies night, there're only 2 of us.
Hahaha, we gangsterz, just go on our own. ;)


We were super early, we got sooooooo wasted before the dancefloor was even crowded. -_- fml. I suck so bad @ drinking. :( I was down after Lychee Martini & Cranberry Vodka. fml max. :(

J dropped by, stayed with us until 6am, then he fetched me home. What a sweetie. ♥

The night was fun, on the dancefloor. The awkward moments of meeting people on the dancefloor and again outside of the club was awkwardly funny - to me and shae. hahaha. We had a good laugh. :)

So later, Im heading out to Everything with Fries with my girls and J :)

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you. How good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh. I daydream about you, replaying our conversations; laughing at funny things that you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing's for sure; you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me. ♥

Hi, Im taking a leap of faith for you. :)

Baby, you're the best.

Thanks J. :) Got this using only $2. Wow right. Sibei heng!


Caught Resident Evil today, wahp. some scenes scared me. ffffuuu. but its okay. :3 who ask us wna watch it. LOL lucky I didnt watch House of Horror. :S


85 for dinner, damn sian. stingray not as nice liao. :( but the kangkong saved the meal. :3


10 more dayz. :(

LOVE THE MTV. WOOOOOOOO.

"When I'm with you, I act different. In a good way. I smile more and laugh more. I don't have to pretend everything is okay when it's really not. With you, I can drop the fake smile and put on a real one. I don't feel hurt and alone when I'm with you. Instead, I feel safe and loved. You're easy to talk to, and you listen to me. I don't have to worry about holding back with you. I don't feel self conscious. I don't ever feel insecure or sad. you show me that you really do care, and you're not just pretending. I really appreciate your company, because with you I'm different. With you, I'm happy."

:'(

And we were just kids in love,

Love = commitment? Yes it equals to commitment if you and your bf is turning 30, I mean srsly, commitment when you're only teenagers? Tough, I must say. But Im not saying it's impossible, it takes a LOT of courage, tears and.. commitment.

Why make your life so tough? Why fill your teenage life with memories of arguing over nothing with bf, crying yourself silly to sleep and your life basically revolves around him?

Oh, so you think he's "The One". Well, we're all gonna meet several "The Ones" in our lives, but we cannot let "The One" be our life! I mean srsly, I dont encourage Girlfriend Guy / Boyfriend Girl personally, because once he/ she leaves you for a better one, you're left with nothing.

Wait, you didnt know she'll leave you? She's fucking 18. You want her to stick to you for the rest of her life? Being tied down is AN OPTION, it's NOT compulsory, so dont go around saying "Fuck you bitch" when she just want a better life with a better man.

And please be openminded, just because she doesnt sleep with you anymore means she's a slut. Once the hurt is done, nothing's gonna make up for it, mark my words motherfuckers.



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I believe in living in the moment, thats why I already told J, in the future, I might break his heart, but now, Im lovin' him wholeheartedly.

The duration might be short from how we met and all, but thats okay. We're only young once, fuck all the rules and love.

Should I?

My knees get weak, intensive
When you give me k-kisses
That's money honey
When I'm your lover and your mistress
That's money honey
When you touch me it's so delicious
That's money honey
Baby when you tear me to pieces
That's money honey

You know I appreciate the finer things
But it's not what makes me happiest baby
{I can do without it babe}
Your tender loving's more than I can handle
Never burn out this candle baby, baby

There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

Definition.

"I love you
but I’m not in love with you"

Translation: I don’t feel enough for you. You’re not ‘The One’.

I’ve been analysing my feelings for you or how I feel about having a relationship with you. I don’t know how to explain how I feel but I know that I don’t love you enough to want a relationship with you.

I don’t love you in ‘that’ way. I can’t love you in the way that you want to be loved or deserve to be loved.

You hear: He loves me – that’s the main thing. What is being ‘in love’ anyway? I’d rather have him this way than not at all. I know I love him and maybe if I hadn’t done X/Y/Z or been A/B/C, then maybe he would be ‘in love’.
They are questioning their feelings or already have and they know that you’re not ‘The One’. If they stick around in spite of knowing that you’re not ‘The One’, it means you’re good to pass time with.

This is an example of being ‘gently’ let down but it’s painful nonetheless and it will feel like a big blow of rejection. He may or may not mean it when he says that he loves you but the key here is to take him at his word because this is a major sign that something is wrong. Just like when someone says that they want to break up with you (and by the way, the ‘I love you but…’ line is a prelude to breaking up even if you don’t), it means that they don’t see potential in the relationship – they don’t believe in you, their feelings for you, or the relationship. They don’t want to try anymore.
When people separate out how they feel, dissect it, and go to the trouble of telling you, it’s because they want to communicate what they don’t feel.

The key here is not to fall into the trap of getting hung up on the individual meanings of the words – how much frickin’ analysing and decoding can be done in your relationship? Should you have to burn up brain and emotional energy trying to dissect what someone feels for you or looking for reasons to hang on?

If you overanalyse this statement and stay, you will spend your relationship looking for validation from them so you can stem the feeling of rejection, when in reality, you need and deserve more than him.

You will become focused on trying to get him to be ‘in love’ with you.

Remember – relationships are not about the ‘in love’ feeling however someone can love you but not want a relationship with you or be inspired to desire a future. We love our family and friends, but we’re not in love with them.

It is important not to get trapped in your feelings or project what you feel and believe that they should give it back – you may be in love, but that doesn’t create an IOU.

People who want to be in a relationship and who have both feet in, don’t burn up energy analysing and questioning their feelings for you. You may have issues but you know that you both feel ‘enough’ and then some to remain committed and work at your relationship and you put in the work with actions.
Remember – everything is contextual. If someone has gone to the trouble of saying this to you, there are other signs that all is not well in the relationship. This should be a jolt to put both of your feet in reality and not allow yourself to be cloaked in illusions.

Creditz


I just want you to understand.

I dont know why I find this picture funny. But I look nice. hehe

Tell me something I dont know.

Am going out on a date; hopefully it'll be good despite the rain.



Thank you, no one ever came so close. And yes, I welcome you into my life. :)
Who wouldn't be happy to have another goodfriend? :)


"The way you look at me
is kind of like a little sister.
Not like a good vice
and it leaves me nothing but blisters."

xoxo
E

Cause I could be your dealer,

Esmée Denters Feat. Justin Timberlake. Super naize!



I think she's so pretty!

UT3 starts today, wish me (extra) luck.


♥

From UFO catcher, $29. :(


Kinda like how I look in this pic, hehe. :3

im so bored and hungry.


"I dont really give a fuck actually. Im not gonna ask you out anymore."